I can’t even beginn to describe the infuriating disappointment that befell me the last weeks. Okay, sure many feminists activists and cultural critcis – especially women and queer folks – will go like “Ha, under what kind of rock have you been living, Anjin?”.
But this is the crowd I ranted about, tried to understand and educate the last 5 years? What the flying fuck? How can this be so big and run so deep?
"Not everybody is…" NO STOP NO… of course not, but it does not matter. If this kind of movement can become THAT popular in the gaming culture community cesspool whatever… than the tumours are way to big to be ignored.
And gamers who are “not like that” have been way to silent. ..except of course when it comes to correcting critics, then you suddenly find a voice.
This movement was driven by confusion, which bred resentment, which called for justification, which led to conspiracy theories…
Why do I now have to interact with women and girls? Why is my hobby suddenly racist and sexist? Why do like non-games like Gone Home get similar ratings to GTA5? Why do we have to talk about violence in games again? Why do I have a gay romance option and somebody suggested skippable combat sequences? Why is stuff changing? Who does that?
Okay, sure it’s an industry currently standing on hedonistic masculinity simulators, so what did I expect except a horde of anti-intellectual and sexist asshattery.
I spent the last three weeks talking to at least a hundred proponents of #gamergate and #notyourshield and I got almost an equal amount of explanations of what their cause actually is…
…againts journalistic corruption. …against Anita Sarkeesian. …against Depression Quest. …against Zoe Quinn. …against the game critic “elite”.
…and most of them fought against accusations that they where against anybody in the first place.
There was no cause. There was only confusion.
The fact that publishers, media outlets, tv stations, big names in games have not been burying that bullshit with an avalanche of statements of contempt and ridicule shows how financially invested gaming is in exactly that bullshit.
It is amazing and horrifying at the same time how infantile gaming culture is. Wow, there is so much to repair and so many asses to kick (I’m looking at your asses AAA marketers and publishers!)
The last three weeks have burdened me with the challenge to complete reevaluate my relationship with games, how I view myself, what bridges I’m ready to burn, what to focus on…
I haven’t figured it out yet.
BTW kudos to all the voices who have been doing critical commentary on games – especially those who are not privileged to be an able bodied white straight cis male like me – you know how to take punches and to get back up on your feet!
One of the saddest and most hil- NO BITCH, the sad thing here is the fact that you're a stripper. If you want respect, maybe you should've graduated high school. 😂😂 when did stripping become a legitimate career?
Awww, you tried so hard, but unfortunately I can’t hear you over the sound of my debt-free college degree and massive disposable income.